Every day gets harder to get through the next is worse than the one before every day the fight gets harder and a don't know if a kin fight a battlee everyday I know in end I'm losing cause life won't ever be the same and it never will that day my life changed in every way I could have ever imagined and nothing at all is the same nothing and only thing the same is me try fight and do right for others but u know you hurt more People that way and suffer more in long run and I'm losing hope that a don't even know if a remember who a am anymore or want to know maybe easier sometimes losing yourself and losing it all and fuck the lot a don't think I can do this fir rest of my life it's far too hard to even think about never mind so x